Phantasy World

Pray - Justin Bieber (Girl Version) I am tired and seriously, I really 痛恨这世界的虚伪！Why?! I can never hide my emotions, neither can I be friendly to someone who I really detest. They can speak bad about someone behind their back and smile at him/her the next moment. What's wrong with this world?! It is tiring to look for people you can trust in this world. One of my colleagues commented to me once, "I dont know who I can trust." Indeed. It was so much easier to trust people around us when we were much younger. Because everyone wasnt 'contaminated' by this reality world made filthy by fakers. When I was a kid, I cant wait to become an adult. Because I can finally get away from school, the endless homework, get to watch tv till late night without nagging from my mum. Now that I have grown up, I wish that I could turn back the time to seek for the simplicity in people. I know I cant. I know that I am already 'contaminated'. I can have a thousand reasons...

鄭融 - 成就感 大家都说：“要人对你好，你就要先付出。”， No one is obliged to be good to you , taking people for granted . 不要老是要求人，其他人没有必要满足你。 话说得没有错。 说真的，我觉得大家都在迁就我。我是知道的，是高兴的，是感动的。我总是得到我要的，可是永远都不是我就想要的。 你说我自私，说我不讲理，但绝不能说我从不迁就。 我 最想要去的地方， 最想做的事， 最想吃的东西， 最想玩的东西， 因为你们的反对， 因为我知道你们老是迁就我， 所以为了让你们开心 所以我让步了。 我不去我最想去的地方， 我不去做我的最想做的东西， 我不去吃我最想吃的东西， 我不去玩我最想玩的东西。 有时候，我得不到我要的，是因为大家对价钱的问题。 所以我为了得到我最想要的，我愿意付的比大家多， 甚至愿意把一切都付了， 可是 为什么 为什么你们还是不愿意 为什么 就是不能让我这一次 让了我这么多次 可是我得到的， 却永远，永远不是我最想要的。 难道 我就没让过吗？ 难道 你们都不知道吗？ 有一些事，一些地方， 我想要做，想要去 已经好几年 不是一年，不是两年，而是至少四年 每一次都被拒绝 我忍 我让 就这样过了这么多年 当我真的不能再忍时 我发难 我就在你们眼里变得无理取闹 。 。 。 。 。 我 还有什么话好说 不想说了 更不想解释 因为解释 没人能理解 大家只会想，不能 ‘这样’，就 ‘那样’ 吧。为什么要这么执着？ 对呀，我就 ‘那样’ 了这么多年。 就这样继续下去吧 到死的那一天，我都没办法 ‘这样’。 如果可以 我愿意失去所有我得到的 ‘想要的’ 一切 来换取我 ‘最想要的’ 一切。 你知道 ‘最想要’ 和 ‘想要’ 的分别吗？

Ryan Farish - Time Between Us Alright. I am back. We had our company dinner (or rather, Admin & AA dept's) at Fairmont Hotel on 12 Nov, which was also Choi Wan's last day. It was fun and the food was good. After the dinner, some of us went for the second part of the night - Ksinging at Somerset! I didnt stay for the full session though. I left slightly after 12 am while the rest continued till 1 am plus. Then, 18 Nov was Chern Chong's last day. Hmm... Before I went off that day, he just had to say goodbye to me, with the label 'EX-COLLEAGUE' at the back. =.=""" Well, we have been meeting up for lunch quite frequently after he started working at his new location, which is somewhere near by. Yesterday was the official last day for Mike. However it was more reasonable to take his last day as of 26 Nov. lol.... I've forgotten that it was his last day on that day. Next, it will be Gwen and my manager...... =( And I happen to know that there are ano...

Lena Park - Plastic Flower 網路聊天時，朋友無緣無故打出123這時你會回： A. 打「456」 B. 打「321」 C.打「打問號or什麼」 D.打「站著穿」 解析 選A的人： 善解人意配合度好，別人話才說到一半，就知道別人想說什麼。 選B的人： 幽默，偶爾喜歡跟人唱反調，常常有出人意表的見解。 選C的人： 對人對事都很認真，遇到問題一定會想辦法弄明白，有時會因為一句話，把場子弄得很冷自己還一頭霧水。 選D的人： 純粹來亂的，想必這位朋友腦子裡都是紙尿布！ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Very lazy to update this space. Guess that I will do summary of the past events instead. 27 Aug - Went to Likun's farewell dinner together with some other colleagues at the Marche at Vivo. 1 & 3 Sept - Our department packing day! That's the happiest days of all because I was allowed to wear jeans and sport shoes. Haha! Actually 3rd sept was the official day. It was so chaotic that day! Initial plan was to go for some concert invited by Imelda with Dora. However, I didnt manage to go in the end. Haha. The tearing session (of those papers) took hrs! Our group only finished it at around 7pm. =.=" 4 Sept - Kept sneezing. No idea why. Initially I planned to sleep my day away due to insufficie...

側田 - 原來你什麼都想要 No picture No picture... No picture! Pek Chek! The 2nd fortune teller I went to was so accurate! She told me that something that I like will be missing after 30 June, and indeed it happened! I was pickpocketed on the train and when I alighted the train, my handphone was gone. It was only 6mths old. Damn it! I was shocked over the whole incident, but more because of the words by the fortune teller. Rui helped me to search for the mobile shops in ION and I told her to search for Singtel. We queued and waited but it turned out that the mobile suspended service is not available there. We strolled around (with the inital thought of goin to taka for another singtel shop) and we came upon some roadshow by Starhub and met Huihui there. Then............... oh... I nearly burst out laughing. Or mayb, I did. XD My internet plan is SingNet, but my mobile plan is Starhub! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We wasted nt at the singtel shop. LOL! Like what Rui've said, it was a go...

Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence (Violin Concerto) - London Session Orchestra Oh yeah. Be enchanted in the music! There was an advanced christmas celebration held by the RC at the recreational ground below my flat last night. One of the songs they played was 'Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence' by Ryuichi Sakamoto. Sakamoto Ryuichi - Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence (Live) After so many yrs, I'm still lovin this song as much as before. Here's another 2 versions I found in youtube. Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence sori1004jy Rin' - Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence Anyway, I find that it is interesting when people tends to IM/SMS me just when I was going to log off or sleep. =.=" Hmm... I've lost the 'feel' of being signing into msn since I started working. Work has been eating my private time (though not too much of it), hence I'd love to have the rest of my time to myself. Ya, that's also one of the reasons why I choose not to sign in msn. SO.........SMS me if it is...

Blue Summer (配乐) - 《热情仲夏》OST Came across this joke while blog-hopping. At least it brought smile to my face. =) This is why women should not take men shopping against their will. After I retired, my wife insisted that I accompany her on her trips to Wal-Mart Unfortunately, like most men, I found shopping boring and preferred to get in and get out. Equally unfortunately, my wife is like most women - she loved to browse. Yesterday my dear wife received the following letter from the local Wal-Mart: Dear Mrs. Samsel, Over the past six months, your husband has been causing quite a commotion in our store. We cannot tolerate this behavior and have been forced to ban both of you from the store. Our complaints against Mr. Samsel are listed below and are documented by our video surveillance cameras. 1. June 15: Took 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in people's carts when they weren't looking. 2 . July 2: Set all the alarm clocks in Housewares to go off at 5-minute intervals. 3. ...

幸福不滅 - 羅志祥 Went to support huiyun and peifen's family concert yesterday. Before that, I met up with SJ and rui to go orchard because I wanted to get the novels. Though I didnt find the novel that I planned to get, but...LOL.. I found another novelist's books. LOL. I happily grabbed it and went cranky at Kino infront of them. LOL!!! Sad... I need to ask SJ to help me get the books from hongkong when she goes there next year. LOL!! K la. At least it will be cheaper in HK compared to in Singapore. Then we met up with SJ's sis and wei2 at clementi before heading to NP. Sj was so high last night at NP. LOL! After the concert, gen drove the rest to supper at bukit timah. Because I did guess that they will definitely go to a faraway place for supper, which will result in the chance of the rest of us taking cab home, with the addition intention of saving money, I told them that I will be going home. LOL!!! Peifen sigui had the good intention of guiding us to the supper place, but...

三角行 - 迷路兵 当自己赚的钱不是被你花掉的时候，你有什么感想？当那笔钱是花在一些对你日常生活中没义上时，你又有什么感触？ 当你赚的钱是花在一些你根本就不用负责的事情上，你是否会感到愤怒？ 又有谁能真得明白我当时的心情和感受？就在几分钟内，我多过一半的积蓄就没了。 没了。。。 没的不只是钱，也是信任。 真得好想说一句。。。。。。。 我好想、好想去。。。。。。。

Careless Whisper - Kenny G Does it means by having friends beside you then that’s friendship? Then what do you call those friendship whereby two friends don’t understand each other? It’s tiring for me lately. I used to take those criticism remarks from them as a joke because I know most of the time that was meant to be. Though the words are hurting, but I take it as something that symbolize how close we are to each other. At least you wont criticize or make fun of those just-got-to-know people’s dream. Right? Maybe I’ve changed. I no longer can take those criticisms from them. Just like when I told them that I wanted to open a pub in the future. That’s MY dream, not theirs. But in the end, I play the role of cleaner in MY dream. I know they don’t mean it that way. I know that they think that I am someone who can joke with. But… there’s limit to everything. Not really implying to all. But just one. I think they know whom I am referring to. It’s either that he gotte...

FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!FUCK! I wish I am an orphan! Not just a simple whining but is truely what I feel AND WANT. It's been long since I lost my temper totally, to the extent of tearing due to anger. I wish I could be like Char. Her way of controlling temper and people are admirable, something which I can never attain. Idea of running away from home keep flashing through my mind. Maybe, maybe not.I dont know. I just want to be an orphan; Parentless, no debt, lesser problems. I would be using the most vulgar word in the world if there is any. OH FUCK IT! Broken (featuring Amy Lee) - Seether

HAHA!!! Anyway, I took the below pics on sunday evening. Well... you can tell where the sun is setting from the pics. Getting darker in no time. Actually is not. haha..I just change the mode from night landscape back to auto. xD Speaking of that, my phone is really SOT! I mean the USB port. =( Seemed like I have no choice but to trade in this phone when my plan end. Hopefully it will not spoil anymore!!! Btw, I went to Sheng Siong near wei2's place after work on monday! My motive is obviously , GETTING FOOD! I am going to clear my cupboard and get more food supplies to fill up the cupboard. Scary hor? xD But I like. Maybe one day I should consider opening up provision shop. In that way, I have a whole SHOP of JUNK FOODS!!!! *ice cream.... potato chips... chocolates... sweets... cold drinks.... * (drools) Most probably I will be dropping by again on friday. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, I think I am going to update my blog every day but not about my thoughts or what-so-ever. The reaso...

Resigned = Maybe got pay = next time my job history will 'look' nicer = short period of working give impression that I am 三分钟热度。= Pay $500 to Businessedge Fired! = No pay = Job history very ugly = if asked, at least I can say at least I strived to the last min = Pay $500 to BusinessEdge. ... Haiz.. which one shld I choose? Btw, to answer you guys' qns. I want to quit is because, is too 'flexible' timing for me that make me... DONT LIKE IT! Everyday have to chase after the QUOTA, and... I really dont like to make phone calls every time. I dont know how to explain, I just dont like the job although it can be a very good experience for me. But, I think I have learnt enough. As for paying of $500, is because I've signed the contract with BusinessEdge. So if I cant stay in this project until the end, I will have to pay that amount. I spoke to my mum last night and, she dont mind me quitting it though she hope that I will strive on. =( But... But... But... I feel like...

I tried... I really did my best... But.. I just cant refrain myself from feeling like a fool, A fool who is being toyed around with, by you. Though I knew it all along that it wasnt intentional, but all I asked for is just your understanding of my feeling when you do all these. First chance, gone... Second chance, gone... Third chance? Sorry, I've been compressing these feelings for months now, and.... now, I just need to vent it somewhere else before I bite everyone insanely . Thanks to you, the unexpected one. 仪，别气了。这只不过是小事情，不要气了。。。。

=( I dont like the hot weather!!! I cant wait for the monsoon season to come!!!!!!!!!!!

=( Sent my hp to 'hospital' today and hopefully I can get back by Monday. =((( All thanks to Weifen for accompanying me and treating me for pool session just now. Bleahz. Most importantly, she's the one who guide me the way to the service centre at CJ GLS building. If not.... I cant imagine myself roaming aimlessly at Jurong east. =( Well, that day is bound to come when I go for collection. =((( On the way to Jurong east on the MRT, I passed by Redhill. You know that kind of wow-I-am-back-to-this-place-again-after-a-few-years emotion? The moment the train came out from the tunnel, and the sunlight shone in, immediately I thought, I am back! Back where I was two years ago. Looking at the familiar surroundings; the bus stop that used to be overcrowded by RP students, the taxi stand that always have long queue, the same old route that RP students walked to Tanglin Campus. But now, they were just merely memories. Remember the empty lot beside the Redhill MRT station via the ro...

Blahz... FYP had just ended! It felt kinda weird, like something is missing from my life. Well, that's definitely because we dealed with this project for almost a year. =.=""" Lately, we had been receiving letters from NTU about the open house etc. Just received another yesterday and I think I wanna go down for the talk on 2 feb. That's a good chance to hear about the courses and the admission stuff. Last night, my mum wanna talk to me about the admission to NTU. I kept repeating myself that I HAVE NOT apply to NTU, but she wont understand it and repeatly asking me the same question CONSECUTIVELY. *argh* And the history is simply repeating itself. She asked me using the tone that its-the-matter-of-fact-that-you-should-know-how, "how to apply? Need to go here and register this is it? And then do what? " She assumed that I knew all the procedures to go about registering, fees and when to register and when to get result. What am I? Genius? I dont need to d...

SPOP hurray! --> http://spop.mediacorptv.sg/voting.htm The top 12 were out but, blah.. I only like 5 songs out of those. LOL!!!! Song no. 2, 4, 8, 10 and 12 were my choices. No. 4 and 12 were rather funny, however, no. 12 was actually a sweet song if you listen to the lyrics. LOL!!! No. 8 was rather sad. lolx! Overall, nice song with nice lyrics and with nice vocals ( well, I dont really for vocal anyway ). LOL!!! Havent been blogging for a few days. It was a hectic week for me last week with all the 3 UTs and task of rushing FYP report. Bleahz.. YUCK! The feeling really sux. So not gonna remember last week. Eww~ Attended RPWS concert last sat with weifen and her bro. Pris didnt join us despite that she PAID for the ticket. =.=" Well well... These few days I've been worrying........over studies. Man, no kidding. This is the second time that I felt so ever worried and panicked over studies after that fateful day of announcement of O lvl results. Looking at all my UTs grades...

Long post Well well, Hey Gorgeous! crew were at RP yesterday and I caught a glimpse of them going into the library. Yaya, and you can see the whole big group of people crowding around them. So if you wanna look out for their whereabout, just look out for the crowd. =.=" In the middle of the dai dee game with michelle, angerline and gireen, those classmates of mine who were seated near the window kept staring out, looking toward the swimming pool direction. Even outside the classroom, there were other people from other schools looking out too. LOL. Went over to get a glimpse and noticed that the crew were there, doing shooting. Suddenly someone exclaimed that they were coming nearer and the cameraman seemed to be shooting our direction. And then, all of them 'ran' far from the window. =.=""" Was rather "disappointed" that wei2 didnt came for school yesterday all because he overslept. LOL. (Well, I overslept too. For the whole 3years in RP, this is t...

Usually I dont have anything against salesperson or those agents (either insurance or wadeva) that you will see them down the street. However there are just some of them who will totally turn me off and I shall let them have a taste of my attitude. Yup, I am one of those unreasonable 'client' whom I always complained of FACING during work but at least, I do that to only a certain group of people who possessed the same trait; FORCING people to adopt their saving plan or buy their product. Yes, the magic word here is FORCING. I do understand that they are earning for a living and especially for these people, most of their income come from the commissions and the number of clients they get by the end of the month. Therefore, they will always try their best, speaking all the good things to the clients to convince them. In fact, I encountered some of these people who DO know how to look at the colour of people's face. When they sensed that you are totally uninterested, they wil...