My emotion conquered me for e first half of the day.
totally gt no mood for anything. seriously, i dun wanna speak or anything, but i FORCE (yes, i seriously force myself) myself to ask usha n some of them wad do we need to find. if not, *zip* , tt's wad i will do to myself. today's prob not tt hard either, but when i was searchign for e ans for e worksheet, i juz tried 2 times, and i nearly blow my top simply becoz i couldnt get e answer i wan, but all plain RUBBISH. i kept calming myself down during e 1st breakout. no one realise i guess.
mayb usha realise? i dunno... i find tt i am unexceptionally quiet today. i actually msn usha to get worksheet frm her when she is juz RIGHT BESIDE ME. ha! i tot that i could drown myself in e work. however, i cant stop tinking. every min when i was doing the research, i haf e urge of telling them 'i wan to go home... i not doing already. BYE!' and juz walk out of e klassroom. is not becoz of e work, is simply, i haf no mood at all. and yet, i forced myself.
until i finished my part, i watched 'green forest'. i knew michelle came over to look for us... she even disturb me... however, i sort of ignored her. so sry michelle, i dunno if she notice not. but i practically ignore her existence and cont watching my show. is not her fault... is mine. is not becoz i wan to watch e show so i ignore her, is not. is simply becoz i dun wan to haf interaction wif anyone today. she came over twice, but she went off everytime, luckily, joey kept her accompany.
it was until e 3rd meeting.. i started to control myself again. went back wif clara n michelle, met mich, shihui, jen n her fren in e lift. haha.. michelle so funny la, she said 'eh.. ur fren lehz!' den i looked behind at e poster bout e material sci seminar =.=" nicholas's face again. so we were lik pushing tt to each other. haha! went to canteen, walk everywhere also gt his face. so i was saying 'nicholas's face is haunting us everywhere... LOOK! here's another.' haha...
no idea la. i seriously... need to spend some time alone. haiz!~
totally gt no mood for anything. seriously, i dun wanna speak or anything, but i FORCE (yes, i seriously force myself) myself to ask usha n some of them wad do we need to find. if not, *zip* , tt's wad i will do to myself. today's prob not tt hard either, but when i was searchign for e ans for e worksheet, i juz tried 2 times, and i nearly blow my top simply becoz i couldnt get e answer i wan, but all plain RUBBISH. i kept calming myself down during e 1st breakout. no one realise i guess.
mayb usha realise? i dunno... i find tt i am unexceptionally quiet today. i actually msn usha to get worksheet frm her when she is juz RIGHT BESIDE ME. ha! i tot that i could drown myself in e work. however, i cant stop tinking. every min when i was doing the research, i haf e urge of telling them 'i wan to go home... i not doing already. BYE!' and juz walk out of e klassroom. is not becoz of e work, is simply, i haf no mood at all. and yet, i forced myself.
until i finished my part, i watched 'green forest'. i knew michelle came over to look for us... she even disturb me... however, i sort of ignored her. so sry michelle, i dunno if she notice not. but i practically ignore her existence and cont watching my show. is not her fault... is mine. is not becoz i wan to watch e show so i ignore her, is not. is simply becoz i dun wan to haf interaction wif anyone today. she came over twice, but she went off everytime, luckily, joey kept her accompany.
it was until e 3rd meeting.. i started to control myself again. went back wif clara n michelle, met mich, shihui, jen n her fren in e lift. haha.. michelle so funny la, she said 'eh.. ur fren lehz!' den i looked behind at e poster bout e material sci seminar =.=" nicholas's face again. so we were lik pushing tt to each other. haha! went to canteen, walk everywhere also gt his face. so i was saying 'nicholas's face is haunting us everywhere... LOOK! here's another.' haha...
no idea la. i seriously... need to spend some time alone. haiz!~
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