Phantasy World

i guess, some changes r needed in my life now. yea... i am actually wondering, when will coldness appear in my eyes etc. yea.. i wan to b cold to ppl now. wad e use for everything? wad's e use? i lost my belief.. i lost everything. i couldnt see anything anymore. i simply dun see e reason y tt tiny weeny request frm me is being rejected. i used to tink bout wad u said, i accept e logic behind it. however, tis time round, seriously... is not me being selfish anymore. is YOU! simply is u... however, it doesnt matter if u realise it or not.. let thing go back to where it started. the point where i assume that u dunno me. yes.. that's e starting pt. i was fuming wif anger last nite, and seriously dun wanna say any more word to anyone. no... not yet to the extent i wan to kill ppl, but soon i guess. however, the sadness in me simply overpower the anger. there seems to be many things that i am unhappy bout... too many. trivial matters to all of u, but, listen here, or rather, LOOK HE...

hmm.. wad a coincidence today. i actually took e same 168 wif usha, practically, we went skool together all e way frm tampines to RP. wahaha anyway. while waiting for zhen, i actually went in W36Q and wait there. yup, empty klassroom. the silence in the room act as a melody for my mind. i can feel e pressure in my ears (lik ear blk). i was sitting there, looking outside e window, realised tt it was goin to rain. den i tot of alot of things.. realli alot of things. seems lik, i could actually tot things thru liddat. haha! den zhen came in n said sth lik, 'y u so lonely/pityful liddat?' haha...though i told her is not, but.... in e inner me, i thought to myself, 'tis isnt consider lonely compared to e inner world of mine.' haiz~ went break wif onli a few of them =.=" in fact, onli zhen n ethan. zy seems so bz. so i was lik trying to get zhen to finish her meal w/o looking at e laptop ma, so i closed e lid. too bad for her, 2 vs 1. wahaha! so when she actually wan to ...

haha!!! some ppl might find it weird y am i still online at tis time despite having lesson tml. wahaha! reason is beri simple, i am pon-ing skool tml. haha.. was telling tt to rui becoz she msg me. wahaha! she mentioned tt so fast i pon le. when i told her tis is e 2nd time, she also pengz. wahaha! but mum actually din say anything when she noe i pon-ing tml, she onli mention bout me catching up e lesson. haha! anyway, i am lik digging all those songs which i heard during my sec3 n sec4 days. yea.. 5566 first album one. wahaha!! their 2nd track gt more impact on me ba. i rmb i used to keep repeating playing tis song in my discman yrs back. den i heard tt song, i rmb e time when i went home after exam. whoa! haha! n of coz, other memories too, for eg, i went studying wif huiyun under my blk, n... erm... hehe... in fact most of e tracks in tt album brought back alot of memories la. still rmb at tt time, still gt wan quan yu le one. i always chiong home juz to watch it.. oh yea oh yea.. i...

haha! recently i helped weiwei in his compo, which muz haf tis 4 themes - sex, religion, royalty and mystery. wahaha!! i luv tis kinda of compo manz! is so lit to me. wahaha! it actually trigger ur brain and imagination can RUN WILD! whoaaaaaa i love it! wahaha... we actually haf a great laugh together last nite. muahaha! rite, weiwei? wahaha. n he asked me, 'wad haf u been tinking for e past few yrs, now so bian tai.' wahaha!!!!!!! NOW u KNOW! lolx! actually, hu ask u start tis kinda of plot seh! at least, i express it out, not lik someone. wahaha!!!! but fun ah, he showed me his final product, whoa... his english power lehz. better den mine... wahaha.. n he actually used tt idea. muahaha!! weiwei, if u see tis post, rmb hor... tell me mdm saleha's reaction. wahaha!!!!!! anyway.. i saw tis quiz frm weiwei's blog. haha.. You scored as Past . Your depression is caused by your past. Something happened that you wish you could forget, but you can't. You think about it a...

btw.. i forgt to include one thing. my faci today realli beri lame! wahaha.. becoz, beginning we already told her to extend e RJ dateline. so when skool ending, after she told us she opened e rj. she said... 'from tis moment onwards, my ears turn deaf' muahaha!!! becoz, she noe we will argue wif her tt issue again. but in e end, she lost! muahaha!!!

today klass was kinda of... hmm. i dunno how to say. i lik tis klass, becoz they r noisy. haha!!!! damn cute la, them. haha! we had fun bullying nicholas anyway. he din get his teh-peng for consecutive two days. MUAHAHAHA!!! shag sia! wahahaha! anyway, there's an email bout material sci seminar...n guess wad, they made use of nicholas's face. muahaha!!! n hweeling n them were so bad, hahaa.. they said, 'initially we wan to go one, however we saw they use ur face, dun go liao la.' muahaha!!! but we meant it for a joke la. wahaha! anyway, after skool, met up wif shahid. wahaha.. initially i dun wan go watch movie wif them one... in e end, zhen made e decision for me. haha! so i went la... but in e end, we din watch da vinci code, we watched x-men instead. n hor.. =.=" we sat in e first front row... so miserable. k ba.. more fortunate den those ppl infront. haha!! is lik so funny k! becoz, infront of us tt row, gt two RP students la. n is lik.. gt one couple came in...

starting, i would lik to say, TODAY SO SHIOK!! we finish our work by 11am already. haha!!! n hor... michelle n i were in 5L (empty klassroom w/o any light on) n we scared usha. wahaha! oh yea.. i met faathir at 168 bus stop again!...lastly, i received e msg saying tt ethan goin to check out lao da's gift. haha!! oh yea... lao da's kena deceived by me juz now. wahaha, he called me 'blur', however, he dunno e one being blur is him! *evil laugh* =X anyway, those ppl din come today, so today, i went back kinda early wor. becoz is raining heavily seh, so, michelle, usha, clara n me took cab to cwp. by tt time already not tt heavy liao. tt uncle seems to b acting blur to me. he even asked us, 'how to go mrt station?' =.=" he realli act until kinda fake seh. so i told him, 'turn right U-turn'... idiot, he go turn right, but nv U-turn, den go one big round. until i lik nearly say 'uncle, let me control e steer wheel.. i shall drive =.=" ' is li...