one of e ost frm zhong ji yi ban (KO one) - bao hu se. i realli lik e lyrics alot.. is lik... so close to me, kinda speak wadeva i wanna say n how i felt. is lik.. e scenario seems to b happening soon? i dunno.. i juz gt tt kinda of feeling...
sumone mentioned tt i had changed, frm e first time he/she saw me until now, may it b mentality or wadeva... haha. n wad i told him/her was, 'u guys juz dunno me well'. yea.. indeed, in e past i was liddat.. well, at least since yr1 beginning ba. haha... slowly ba if u wan, u might see e real me one day... haha!~!~ as for now, juz haf to try to b happy... i understand e meaning of, u haf to live ur life no matter happy or sad, y not choose to live it in a happy way? yea.. i did tt.. but however... tt kinda of happiness doesnt seem genuiness to me... haha... wadeva it is.. haha..
i am realli worn out le...i am confused... realli. i dunno wad i shld do le... i dunno y... i hate to haf feeling right at tis moment! any types of emotions, any types of feelings, i wan NONE of them! it juz feel so scary tt sumone whom u expect tt he/she dunno anything bout u, actually noe tt tinking of u long ago... so.. whether saying it out now or not, doesnt make any difference le. frankly speaking, i feel kinda of disappointed... utterly disappointed.
lastly... i juz feel so being distrusted.. or rather, i feel so ignorant. ppl always seem to noe sth which they dun wan to tell me, whenever when i dun wish to tell them how or wad i am tinking, they will keep bugging me... i dunno how to put in words... is juz lik, e whole world noes n onli u dunno, n when u actually ask anyone in e world, tt person juz change e topic or wad-so-eva-shit. u noe how sucky is it?
perhaps, i shld choose my frens all over again ba..... i seriously haf enough of it... n i mention ENOUGH of it.
haha.. one gd news, i found e reasons for me to back off le~~ haha
anyway... juz wanna mention bout sth which realli made me nearly laugh my head off tis afternoon in klass. becoz jim came my klass alone.. n alot of my frens misunderstood =.=" den after skool, actually usha asked me bout jim =.=" n i clarified wif her already. n guess wad she said???
*drum roll*
she said, '' hey! he's quite handsome lehz....'' *FAINT!!!*
JIM! u dun float off ur chair when u see tis hor! =.=" if usha, u happen to see tis part, i juz wanna tell u, u wan him, u can tk him. wahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!
sumone mentioned tt i had changed, frm e first time he/she saw me until now, may it b mentality or wadeva... haha. n wad i told him/her was, 'u guys juz dunno me well'. yea.. indeed, in e past i was liddat.. well, at least since yr1 beginning ba. haha... slowly ba if u wan, u might see e real me one day... haha!~!~ as for now, juz haf to try to b happy... i understand e meaning of, u haf to live ur life no matter happy or sad, y not choose to live it in a happy way? yea.. i did tt.. but however... tt kinda of happiness doesnt seem genuiness to me... haha... wadeva it is.. haha..
i am realli worn out le...i am confused... realli. i dunno wad i shld do le... i dunno y... i hate to haf feeling right at tis moment! any types of emotions, any types of feelings, i wan NONE of them! it juz feel so scary tt sumone whom u expect tt he/she dunno anything bout u, actually noe tt tinking of u long ago... so.. whether saying it out now or not, doesnt make any difference le. frankly speaking, i feel kinda of disappointed... utterly disappointed.
lastly... i juz feel so being distrusted.. or rather, i feel so ignorant. ppl always seem to noe sth which they dun wan to tell me, whenever when i dun wish to tell them how or wad i am tinking, they will keep bugging me... i dunno how to put in words... is juz lik, e whole world noes n onli u dunno, n when u actually ask anyone in e world, tt person juz change e topic or wad-so-eva-shit. u noe how sucky is it?
perhaps, i shld choose my frens all over again ba..... i seriously haf enough of it... n i mention ENOUGH of it.
haha.. one gd news, i found e reasons for me to back off le~~ haha
anyway... juz wanna mention bout sth which realli made me nearly laugh my head off tis afternoon in klass. becoz jim came my klass alone.. n alot of my frens misunderstood =.=" den after skool, actually usha asked me bout jim =.=" n i clarified wif her already. n guess wad she said???
*drum roll*
she said, '' hey! he's quite handsome lehz....'' *FAINT!!!*
JIM! u dun float off ur chair when u see tis hor! =.=" if usha, u happen to see tis part, i juz wanna tell u, u wan him, u can tk him. wahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!
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