Phantasy World

今天听着这首歌，突然觉得不太开心。这几个星期都是吧！我知道我为什么不开心，可是我不明白为什么。 当我站在巴士里，听着这首歌，我突然对自己说：‘今晚到公园走走吧。。（可是我知道我很懒惰）。。你真的需要透透气，或发发情绪。’ ‘不然找朋友出来吧。’ 可又担心出来后，大家都说些不太开心的话题。 还是算了吧。 然后想到：‘不如一个人到公园吧！还是一个人在房里，关着灯，听着音乐，看着外面的天空。就静静的一个人吧。。’ 想着想着，突然这一幕好像出现在眼前。不夸张，不骗你。这就真的就是 ‘想得入神’。 ‘啊~可是今天老妈早回家，这计划还是泡汤了。’ 。。。结果，我更难过了。 天大地大，为什么就没有一个地方是真正的属于我一个人的？一个永远都不会有人来打扰我的？ 突然觉得离他们好远。。好远。。。既熟悉又陌生。为什么就这么突然？ 两个不同世界的人就像是两条平行线，永远都不会有交叉点。当你站在两条平行线的中间遥望着另一端，它们看似总有交叉点，但也只是错觉而已。 认清自己的世界吧~ 今天我到了Bedok Reservoir，其实是有想过在那里待一下子。也想过，不如就从那里走路回家吧。可是，我还是算了。这样做的话，我想心情应该会更糟。 突然好怀念以前的生活。 真的。。。好怀念。

Yasuko Kyoda - Aqua After so many years, we finally had the class gathering. Everything feels so right and everyone are catching up with each other. 扫过每个人都没见他的踪影，所以我问：“他呢？没来？” 这一刻全场鸦雀无声。大家就用一种奇怪的眼光看着我，回答的人的声音也好像提高了八度，狐疑的似问似答：“他在几年前已经死了，难道。。。你不知道？” 那一刻，我僵住了。开玩笑的吧？我听错了吧？ “...Huh...? 真的？。。。假的？” 开玩笑的。一定是。骗人的。 “真的。” 好残酷的回答。 一股气涌上来。“为什么没人告诉我？！为什么不通知我？！！” 我觉得好难过，好像呼吸不过来。好气。到底是怎么一回事？ 大家你看我，我看你。“我们以为你不来他的丧礼，是因为还在生他的气。” 有病！ 根本就没人告诉我！！！ 忽然觉得好‘空’，好突然，脑子里一片空白。没办法接受。僵住了。 我感觉到时间好像在这一刻停住了。 在我还没来得及发现自己在干嘛时，我已经哭了。痛哭的那种。觉得好痛哦。 我知道我是在做梦。可是，还是好痛。 醒来后第一件对自己说的就是：“幸好，是梦。” I dont know why. But I have been dreaming of people around me died. Sigh. I wonder if it really happens in real life...... how would it be. I didnt expect myself to feel this way. It is like a 演习. From here, I know how I will feel and react. But Pls... pls... pls dont let it happen. Pls dont.

Pray - Justin Bieber (Girl Version) I am tired and seriously, I really 痛恨这世界的虚伪！Why?! I can never hide my emotions, neither can I be friendly to someone who I really detest. They can speak bad about someone behind their back and smile at him/her the next moment. What's wrong with this world?! It is tiring to look for people you can trust in this world. One of my colleagues commented to me once, "I dont know who I can trust." Indeed. It was so much easier to trust people around us when we were much younger. Because everyone wasnt 'contaminated' by this reality world made filthy by fakers. When I was a kid, I cant wait to become an adult. Because I can finally get away from school, the endless homework, get to watch tv till late night without nagging from my mum. Now that I have grown up, I wish that I could turn back the time to seek for the simplicity in people. I know I cant. I know that I am already 'contaminated'. I can have a thousand reasons...

鄭融 - 成就感 大家都说：“要人对你好，你就要先付出。”， No one is obliged to be good to you , taking people for granted . 不要老是要求人，其他人没有必要满足你。 话说得没有错。 说真的，我觉得大家都在迁就我。我是知道的，是高兴的，是感动的。我总是得到我要的，可是永远都不是我就想要的。 你说我自私，说我不讲理，但绝不能说我从不迁就。 我 最想要去的地方， 最想做的事， 最想吃的东西， 最想玩的东西， 因为你们的反对， 因为我知道你们老是迁就我， 所以为了让你们开心 所以我让步了。 我不去我最想去的地方， 我不去做我的最想做的东西， 我不去吃我最想吃的东西， 我不去玩我最想玩的东西。 有时候，我得不到我要的，是因为大家对价钱的问题。 所以我为了得到我最想要的，我愿意付的比大家多， 甚至愿意把一切都付了， 可是 为什么 为什么你们还是不愿意 为什么 就是不能让我这一次 让了我这么多次 可是我得到的， 却永远，永远不是我最想要的。 难道 我就没让过吗？ 难道 你们都不知道吗？ 有一些事，一些地方， 我想要做，想要去 已经好几年 不是一年，不是两年，而是至少四年 每一次都被拒绝 我忍 我让 就这样过了这么多年 当我真的不能再忍时 我发难 我就在你们眼里变得无理取闹 。 。 。 。 。 我 还有什么话好说 不想说了 更不想解释 因为解释 没人能理解 大家只会想，不能 ‘这样’，就 ‘那样’ 吧。为什么要这么执着？ 对呀，我就 ‘那样’ 了这么多年。 就这样继续下去吧 到死的那一天，我都没办法 ‘这样’。 如果可以 我愿意失去所有我得到的 ‘想要的’ 一切 来换取我 ‘最想要的’ 一切。 你知道 ‘最想要’ 和 ‘想要’ 的分别吗？

木結他獨奏 張智霖 究竟海有幾深 (魚躍在花見 主題曲) I am back, for a short while. Sigh. From 14 July till now, it has been about 9 months. 9 colleagues left, and Friday marked the 10th. Many changes took place at work and it was just too drastic for anyone to absorb at once. Within my group, which has been labelled 'harmonious' since the first day I joined, is no longer in that way. Wks ago, two of them had argument and it ended up in facebook. It became open to all and both were in cold war in office with another of my innocent colleague having to be their messenger. =( This week was another two colleagues' turn. SIGH!!! Some of them commented that our group had changed. In the past, there is little or no argument among the group. But every now and then, everyone could see and hear those arguments among us going around in office and even in facebook. Sigh. Another 2 colleagues had tendered and their last day is in April. Another one has got her letter ready. The rest are all looking for new jobs...

Ryan Farish - Time Between Us Alright. I am back. We had our company dinner (or rather, Admin & AA dept's) at Fairmont Hotel on 12 Nov, which was also Choi Wan's last day. It was fun and the food was good. After the dinner, some of us went for the second part of the night - Ksinging at Somerset! I didnt stay for the full session though. I left slightly after 12 am while the rest continued till 1 am plus. Then, 18 Nov was Chern Chong's last day. Hmm... Before I went off that day, he just had to say goodbye to me, with the label 'EX-COLLEAGUE' at the back. =.=""" Well, we have been meeting up for lunch quite frequently after he started working at his new location, which is somewhere near by. Yesterday was the official last day for Mike. However it was more reasonable to take his last day as of 26 Nov. lol.... I've forgotten that it was his last day on that day. Next, it will be Gwen and my manager...... =( And I happen to know that there are ano...

98 Degrees - Was it something I didnt say (karaoke version) Many things happened for the past two wks. Hmm.. Hmm.... 27 Oct: Tinh's bday. Celebrated her bday with some other at paya lebar's vietnamese restaurant. Pictures are in facebook. Lol... fun night with them. 29 Oct: Advanced celebration for Celine's bday. Choi Wan and I went to bugis to get her hamper (gift) and cake during lunch hr. Initial plan was to get Erma to bring in the hamper to her, faking that it was sent via courier without any sender details. However, plan was changed slightly. I placed the hamper on her table while she went out. When she was back, she was shocked. I told her that Erma put on her table and it was sent here via courier. Then, I kept saying is her secret admirer while she kept asking me who was it as there's no card. Lol. Erma even co-operated with us and play a fool of Celine. Hahahahhah!!!!!!!!!! Celine commented that by sending her so many chicken essence, this means that the sende...

衛蘭Janice - Never Know (Duet with 李治廷Aarif) Some thoughts... For whatever reason it is, I have no idea why that I have that fear on Friday. It just suddenly appeared. I dont wish to be near that person or talk to that person out of a sudden. But then, I still did. Mixture of unexplainable feeling. Sometime I dont know what is going on. There is no one to talk to. Everyone is busy telling me all bout themselves. .... I just want to get all these clear...... Sometime, it is not easy to break it out. I have no idea why too. When I think I can/want to share this with a particular person, he/she is sharing things all bout themselves that I decided to swallow my questions down my throat. 很乱。搞不懂！真搞不懂！怎么办？怎么办？ Lastly, I dont want Nov to be here, because I dont want them to leave. T_T ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Another week has passed. Joined dinner with Amelie, Celine, Roy, Marcel and Deniss after work at boat quay on Tuesday. Anoth...

金莎 - 画中仙 Many things happened. My probation period is finally over and I got the letter on Friday. (chey, Sowmya didnt have Serlyna's, if not I can play joke with her. LOL) Basically, till this day, I am still quite happy to be working there. Colleagues wise, they are really nice and funny bunch of people though some of them like to 'poke' me, or hit me lightly on my head or back. LOL! Ever since I started work there, I suddenly felt that I have many elder brothers and sisters at the same time, becoz they always refer me as XIAO HAI ZI. TSK! =.=" But......... sigh... =( They had been catching me, smiling to the laptop. Gwen even intercom me: Gwen: Eh, u msn-ing right? Me: Yea.. Gwen: Hahah... EVERYONE saw tt u keep smiling lor!! EVERYONE looking at u lor! While talking to her via phone, I am still msn-ing. HAHAHAHAHAHHA! Sigh..... I will miss them very very much. Anyway, Last Thursday: Farewell dinner for Yolanda with the colleagues and Charles. Then... Yesterday: KTV...

阿穆隆 & 许茹芸 - 男人女人 不想理。。。 刻意的避开。。 也许你以为我没听到、没看到。。。 如果你真的要对我开这种玩笑来报复，也许，我会跟你玩到底。。 说真的，第一个当下感觉也不见得是真的。 原来当你分不出什么是真和假的时候，是那么可怕和迷惘的。 Had my first ktv session with my colleagues today. It was decided last min today and I am still very glad that they did turned up. Really enjoyed myself with them. However.... sigh.... I really hope that this will never end. Sad to say, it is, and it is soon. =(

David Lanz ~ Evening Song Had a stroll back home from Tampines interchange and even took a de-tour. Walked real slowly, listening to music and enjoying the breeze. It's been long since I felt so peaceful and slow at pace. I looked up at the night sky, trying to look for stars. When I walked back the court, I involuntarily searching through everyone............. Then, I realised, it must have turned into a bad habit. On the way, I saw the other one. 一个我不想再看见的过去。。。 Chatted with someone late at night. Someone commented, 'he was really important to u'. Is it? Perhaps, maybe. Was. I am going to make it that way. I know, he was right. Sigh. It is never meant to be that way, for now. Why must people always think in tt way... =.= On a side note, I really wish that I know him much earlier. Tsk. 田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好 (HQ 官方版MV) 田馥甄《TO HEBE》10 - 給小孩 (Yoga 合唱) (CD Version) 心疼妳的心疼 DARA - KISS

Lena Park - Plastic Flower 網路聊天時，朋友無緣無故打出123這時你會回： A. 打「456」 B. 打「321」 C.打「打問號or什麼」 D.打「站著穿」 解析 選A的人： 善解人意配合度好，別人話才說到一半，就知道別人想說什麼。 選B的人： 幽默，偶爾喜歡跟人唱反調，常常有出人意表的見解。 選C的人： 對人對事都很認真，遇到問題一定會想辦法弄明白，有時會因為一句話，把場子弄得很冷自己還一頭霧水。 選D的人： 純粹來亂的，想必這位朋友腦子裡都是紙尿布！ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Very lazy to update this space. Guess that I will do summary of the past events instead. 27 Aug - Went to Likun's farewell dinner together with some other colleagues at the Marche at Vivo. 1 & 3 Sept - Our department packing day! That's the happiest days of all because I was allowed to wear jeans and sport shoes. Haha! Actually 3rd sept was the official day. It was so chaotic that day! Initial plan was to go for some concert invited by Imelda with Dora. However, I didnt manage to go in the end. Haha. The tearing session (of those papers) took hrs! Our group only finished it at around 7pm. =.=" 4 Sept - Kept sneezing. No idea why. Initially I planned to sleep my day away due to insufficie...

林俊傑 - I AM I have been very very busy since last wk. Walking in and out of the boss's room and up and down to the printer area non-stop. Monday I nearly had no breathing space on this day. One, we were actually rushing for some documents for one client. Two, because there were 3 newcomers and I need to help them set up their laptop with their profile (which I had totally no clue as this is my first time, therefore I need the IT guy's help.) Worst of all, the IT guy came when I was at the busy moment, rushing for documents. Three, I had to join for meeting at 2pm. There were still some tasks that will pop up here and there in the process. So when I was printing documents, Likun told me to call Amelie. OK.. fine.. called, but no ans. So.... I continued busy busy busy, charging in and out of my boss's room. He editted the doc, then I had to get back to my seat, change and print again, bring in and let him see. If only I was allowed to wear sport shoe, you can really see me RUN...

Ashe Watson - Milk Carton Ashe Watson - Milk Carton Ghost festival is finally here! Ever since the first day, I have been having weird dreams. It was all about killing; either I was being killed, or others being killed. The first night was the weirdest of all. I dreamt that my whole family (they were all strangers in real life) had planned to commit suicide together, with one who will do the killing and commit suicide after that. When there were only two of us left, I backed off. I dont know why, but I felt the fear. Therefore, I ran away with her chasing after me. When she found and called my name, as I turned, she shot me at my chest. Ya, with gun. =.=" And I dont know where have gone wrong, but another guy joined in. He killed her and wanted to finish me off too. Apparantly, he seemed to be someone known to my whole family (in fact, I know him in real life too. =.="). In the end, it was like... I betrayed my family. I survived and lived with him in the private house wher...

我记得我爱过（钢琴版） When your buddy appeared ok, but you know she is not, and that she is just trying her very best to endure everything.... yet you couldnt do anything... it is really........ I was surfing FB in the office on Tue and a bad news appeared right in front of my eyes. I went into total shocking state and kept reading Yan Ching's shout out again and again! I went down to her mum's funeral straight after work last night. When I reached, it was actually the chanting session. I saw her and her sis (and a few people more) were chanting along with the monks, doing all the kneeling and praying. Then, I saw her mum's photo and I thought to myself, I finally rmb how she looked after all these yrs. The images of her coming to fetch/bringing Yan Ching & Yan Min to school came back fresh in my mind. I remembered that I always called her 'Auntie' and she would return me with her smile. Sometimes, my mum would have those short chit-chat session with her. Typical things t...

失戀圓舞曲 配樂 (淚光美眉版) 當心儀的對象勾引你時的反應？ 當心儀的對象勾引你時的反應？ １.你覺得接吻，是最能向對方表達愛意的一種方式？ ＹＥＳ→２ ＮＯ→３ ２.你覺得接吻的感覺很噁心嗎？ ＹＥＳ→10 ＮＯ→４ ３.法國式深吻讓你感覺非常浪漫？ ＹＥＳ→４ ＮＯ→５ ４.看到電視、電影，或是圖片裡有接吻的畫面時，就會刺激你的性愛慾望？ ＹＥＳ→10 ＮＯ→７ ５.當你正要經過一座橋，而這座橋的寬度只夠兩個人並肩行走，這時有一對情侶正在熱情的擁吻，你會有什麼樣的反應？ 等他們停下來，再借過→７ 直接打斷他們→６ ６.你覺得接吻技巧好的人，表示那是一個花心的人？ ＹＥＳ→13 ＮＯ→９ ７.你喜歡蜻蜓點水式的輕吻，甚過於法國式的深吻？ ＹＥＳ→８ ＮＯ→13 ８.心儀的人因為和別人以「能不能吻到你？」作為輸贏的標準，要求與你一吻，你會答應對方嗎？ ＹＥＳ→12 ＮＯ→14 ９.如果氣氛很美好，你敢在大街上和情人接吻？ ＹＥＳ→15 ＮＯ→Ｄ型 10.你覺得對方會和你親吻，就是一種性暗示，表示希望有進一步親密關係的發展？ ＹＥＳ→11 ＮＯ→８ 11.你認為接吻有助於兩人情感的發展？ ＹＥＳ→Ａ型 ＮＯ→Ｂ型 12.如果有人跟你說經常和情人法式深吻，容易得到傳染病，你會因為在意，而從此拒絕和情人法式深吻嗎？ ＹＥＳ→Ａ型 ＮＯ→11 13.當你想和情人接吻，卻遭對方拒絕，你會有什麼反應？ 掉頭就走→15 問清楚為什麼→14 14.你和情人接吻時，因為太過激烈而受傷，當別人問起你時，你會承認嗎？ ＹＥＳ→Ｂ型 ＮＯ→Ｃ型 15.你覺得如果能在看流星雨的時候和情人接吻，就此生無憾了？ ＹＥＳ→Ｃ型 ＮＯ→Ｄ型 ◎Ａ型 你對愛情有極高的主導意識，當你喜歡對方，會大膽地告白；當你不喜歡對方，死纏爛打只會讓你更覺得討厭，所以如果有心儀的對象向你示好，你也會快速地以善意回應。 ◎Ｂ型 你一生都活在愛情世界裡，一沒有了愛情就覺得人生無趣，為了怕失去愛的感覺，同時間擁有一個以上的情人，會讓你有安全感，你隨時都在放電，對於自動上門的也來者不拒。 ◎Ｃ型 在感情上你顯得十分被動，愛情觀念也很保守，遇到自己喜歡的人，不可能勇敢地表達，若有人主動向你示好或勾引你，你又會因為對自己沒自信，所以無法感受到心動的電波。 ◎Ｄ型 你不容易信任別人，在愛情方面更是如此，對於情人的選擇非常挑剔，不...

Melodic Brothers - Hypnose (KiWis Original Mix) Listening to the background music, the feelings that it give me is as those pics below. I love the view and the 'feel' that this picture above gives me. The lighting and etc.... ... I'm really not looking forward to wed. =( I wish for 4.5 working days only. Ha... Dreaming. Anyway, there are some things I wanna type it here, but I changed my mind. Zzzzz... I seriously dont like to use wireless keyboard and mouse, especially the keyboard. That's because I had to re-type again as some of my alphabets will not come out even if I hit the keys. ZZZ. So sick of it. But well, save money now. It's stupid to spend money to get another keyboard when it is still working. Anyway, try these tests. 1) Mine : 29 pts, 你是瀕臨絕種的「未腦殘菁英份子」！ 2) 玩具喜好透露你的潛在性格 請從下面四個玩具中選出一項你最喜歡的 偏心樹：戴上偏心樹，站在你最近的人就會代你受罪。所以，慢慢地大家都不敢再站在你身邊囉～ 印字三明治：只要把文章印到三明治，吃下後就能輕鬆背書。不過，一天只能吃五片而已。 假如電話亭：只要對電話亭說出願望，就能美夢成真。但是只有二十四小時的時效哦！ 縮小燈：無論再巨大的東西，只要一照就會立刻變成很小很小。但不小心可能會被螞蟻踩死唷...

MYMP - SAY YOU LOVE ME Listening to Mariah Carey - Through the rain. (scroll down for the video) 2:05 - Look outside my room window. Look at the picture above. The HDB flat opp mine was being painted golden yellow. And the sky is red-ish blue with orange-ish red at the west where the sun is setting. Next.. 3:07, Look outside again. This time round I went to the window and the colour got deeper. Super beautiful! 3:28, Saw someone from the opposite flat taking pic in one direction. 3:33, Followed that direction and I SAW THE BIG RAINBOW, with the red-ish blue sky background. Look at picture below. Nice right!!!! Gosh... I sms-ed Huiyun bout it and received Wei2's sms at the same time, telling me bout the rainbow. He mentioned it was big and dual, but I only saw one. =( So envious of him. Maybe he got better sight of it since he's at Tekong. =( ANYWAY! I went to replace my SIM card on Monday. Met Jingfeng in the queue, then met Wendy at the Popular. When I was queuing for 291, I s...