hmm.. juz now was having a chat wif char, hearing her comments on some issue. char, u noe wad? i realli enjoy chatting wif u, especially when u mention some heart-to-heart thing to me.. wahaha~ becoz, i realised, i do reasoning most wif u. wahaha~ perhaps not realli reasoning ba, i always say those things to u tt i wont normally say.. juz kinda of get serious suddenly. haha.. hope u see tis! wahaha.. anyway, i saw ur blog, is TRUE! bout other ppl reading ur blog even if u din gif e url to. wahaha.... n i noe hu r those ppl reading my blog now.. muahaha!~ nahz.. is ok.. read all u wan. wahaha~~
anyway... as i was saying, i was chatting wif char juz now. when she mentioned to me tt she's afraid tt she will return herself to e past. i mean, character wise all tis... haha.. tis really brought me back of wad kel said to me in e past. tt was during 2nd sem, yup, when i was in PL. i realised tt i am changing back to how i was in sec skool to. n i was telling him... at tt period of time, i was realli lost.. and most of all, i am so scared... realli... basically is becoz i dun wan to return to tt kinda of me in e past.
and then, kel said sth to me... 'is all in ur mind! if u kept tinking tt u will return to how u were in e past, u will b...! so dun tink too much! everything is in ur mind!' yup... though i cant rmb exactly wad he said, however, i rmb 100% clearly tt he said 'is all in ur mind!'. at tt time, i was lik tinking.. 'no.. is not mainly becoz of my mind.. i juz haf tt feeling.' however, when i was calmed down after a few days when tt happened.. i tot of wad he said. yes.. is true.. realli.. (erm.. i din expect kel to say sth so SENSIBLE! =X jkjk!) ... is basically all ur mind's doings. one eg will be 'if u TINK u can, u can, if u TINK u cant, u cant..' isnt tis e best eg to explain wad kel said???
i am glad.. i am seriously glad tt i speak to kel on tt day... n i am glad tt he said tt to me. wahaha! although i noe tt he wont see tis now.. becoz i NOE tt he lost my blog link le. muahaha! however, i realli wanna thanked him. haha... he tok sense into me! muahaha~
i haf no idea y... i tink i realli gt two-personalities. wahaha~ i mean, surface n inner.. hmm.. perhaps, not tink ba, is realli liddat! wahaha!~ is lik, when in real life, is hard to see me speaking in a serious tone, as in.. toking sense to sumone, unless tt person tell me his/her prob face to face. in real life, most of e time, u will see me toking craps la! although in msn i also liddat.. however, i feel tt, i tok more sense in msn. realli. haiz~~~ i feel more lik myself when i am toking sense to ppl. seriously. haiz! but.. some ppl juz dun see tt, n juz labelled me as 'lame ppl' =.=" so sad.. n i mean it.
oh well.. they dunno me.. i wont blame them, neither can i blame them =.=" however, now i am tinking, 'who am i to them... y muz they understand n noe me??? i aint tt impt to them afterall.' sad ah.. gt such thought. haha~~ i dunno... juz cant help feeling sad now.
having so many frens ard u, but there isnt any one whom truly understand u. is realli a beri sad thing. realli.... haiz!! if u r tinking tt, 'u shld voice out ur tinking to them!' (tis is wad i will say to others..), i would say tt, i dunno how to voice out my tinking, becoz i wont do it w/o any reason or any topic to make me start wif it. in fact, i realised tt i can voice out my tinking easily in my blog. hence, when ppl read my blog.. tend to noe my feeling n perhaps my tinking ba. haiz~
=) overall, i am glad tt at least i found one whom understand me. yes, is wanzhen! if onli i am given e chance, i will wan to understand her too. haha! i dunno y i suddenly tok until here. perhaps is becoz i rmb tt, someone said tt he dunno my tinking n my characters ba. wahaha~ if tis part he also saw, den too bad la...(if u see, den u see lor.. as i noe tt, my blog also read by other ppl whom i dunno hu, although i noe some of them. wahaha =X) .
lik wad i told zhen, i would say e same thing tt he said bout me, to him also. wahaha!!! but she said tt our characters r bout 80% identical? wahaha~ weird la.. but well, tt doesnt goin to make any difference? however, if u realli gt a fren whom character is so much lik u, also not bad ah? wahaha!!! but one pt, zhen mention to me, stubborn. oops.. tt's bad if both frens gt tis same pt. wahaha!!! '
but seriously now i am starting to wonder how much those frens ard me noe bout me. realli... juz lik when i was asking yun juz now... I REALISE IS SO HARD TO CONVINCE HER TT I AM ASKING SERIOUS QNS HERE W/O STATING 'SERIOUSLY SAYING..' =.=" tt's e side effect of being not serious towards ppl. haiz!! I HATE IT LA!!!
i dunno y.. i am realli starting to hate myself le...
lastly.. wad if i die le..... hu will b sad over my death?? choy??? ok den.. wad if i met accident n in A&E, hu will b e most worried???? perhaps, when i die... no one even noe ba. haha!!
haha! heee!
anyway... as i was saying, i was chatting wif char juz now. when she mentioned to me tt she's afraid tt she will return herself to e past. i mean, character wise all tis... haha.. tis really brought me back of wad kel said to me in e past. tt was during 2nd sem, yup, when i was in PL. i realised tt i am changing back to how i was in sec skool to. n i was telling him... at tt period of time, i was realli lost.. and most of all, i am so scared... realli... basically is becoz i dun wan to return to tt kinda of me in e past.
and then, kel said sth to me... 'is all in ur mind! if u kept tinking tt u will return to how u were in e past, u will b...! so dun tink too much! everything is in ur mind!' yup... though i cant rmb exactly wad he said, however, i rmb 100% clearly tt he said 'is all in ur mind!'. at tt time, i was lik tinking.. 'no.. is not mainly becoz of my mind.. i juz haf tt feeling.' however, when i was calmed down after a few days when tt happened.. i tot of wad he said. yes.. is true.. realli.. (erm.. i din expect kel to say sth so SENSIBLE! =X jkjk!) ... is basically all ur mind's doings. one eg will be 'if u TINK u can, u can, if u TINK u cant, u cant..' isnt tis e best eg to explain wad kel said???
i am glad.. i am seriously glad tt i speak to kel on tt day... n i am glad tt he said tt to me. wahaha! although i noe tt he wont see tis now.. becoz i NOE tt he lost my blog link le. muahaha! however, i realli wanna thanked him. haha... he tok sense into me! muahaha~
i haf no idea y... i tink i realli gt two-personalities. wahaha~ i mean, surface n inner.. hmm.. perhaps, not tink ba, is realli liddat! wahaha!~ is lik, when in real life, is hard to see me speaking in a serious tone, as in.. toking sense to sumone, unless tt person tell me his/her prob face to face. in real life, most of e time, u will see me toking craps la! although in msn i also liddat.. however, i feel tt, i tok more sense in msn. realli. haiz~~~ i feel more lik myself when i am toking sense to ppl. seriously. haiz! but.. some ppl juz dun see tt, n juz labelled me as 'lame ppl' =.=" so sad.. n i mean it.
oh well.. they dunno me.. i wont blame them, neither can i blame them =.=" however, now i am tinking, 'who am i to them... y muz they understand n noe me??? i aint tt impt to them afterall.' sad ah.. gt such thought. haha~~ i dunno... juz cant help feeling sad now.
having so many frens ard u, but there isnt any one whom truly understand u. is realli a beri sad thing. realli.... haiz!! if u r tinking tt, 'u shld voice out ur tinking to them!' (tis is wad i will say to others..), i would say tt, i dunno how to voice out my tinking, becoz i wont do it w/o any reason or any topic to make me start wif it. in fact, i realised tt i can voice out my tinking easily in my blog. hence, when ppl read my blog.. tend to noe my feeling n perhaps my tinking ba. haiz~
=) overall, i am glad tt at least i found one whom understand me. yes, is wanzhen! if onli i am given e chance, i will wan to understand her too. haha! i dunno y i suddenly tok until here. perhaps is becoz i rmb tt, someone said tt he dunno my tinking n my characters ba. wahaha~ if tis part he also saw, den too bad la...(if u see, den u see lor.. as i noe tt, my blog also read by other ppl whom i dunno hu, although i noe some of them. wahaha =X) .
lik wad i told zhen, i would say e same thing tt he said bout me, to him also. wahaha!!! but she said tt our characters r bout 80% identical? wahaha~ weird la.. but well, tt doesnt goin to make any difference? however, if u realli gt a fren whom character is so much lik u, also not bad ah? wahaha!!! but one pt, zhen mention to me, stubborn. oops.. tt's bad if both frens gt tis same pt. wahaha!!! '
but seriously now i am starting to wonder how much those frens ard me noe bout me. realli... juz lik when i was asking yun juz now... I REALISE IS SO HARD TO CONVINCE HER TT I AM ASKING SERIOUS QNS HERE W/O STATING 'SERIOUSLY SAYING..' =.=" tt's e side effect of being not serious towards ppl. haiz!! I HATE IT LA!!!
i dunno y.. i am realli starting to hate myself le...
lastly.. wad if i die le..... hu will b sad over my death?? choy??? ok den.. wad if i met accident n in A&E, hu will b e most worried???? perhaps, when i die... no one even noe ba. haha!!
haha! heee!
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