at tis moment, i dun feel that there is any need for song, n i could feel e swelling of sadness in me. yup.. e silence ard me is the music tt i am listening to right now.

i dun really haf e mood to blog bout wad happen today. but.. i guess, tis will b e post tt i gonna express my thought n feeling again ba. yea.. juz now after skool, two of my frens become weird weird de.. another one i noe wad happen, as for e other one.. i seriously haf no idea. juz feel tt, i am realli worried for e both of them AT E SAME TIME. however, i could feel tt i worry more for e another, as she seems to need my shoulder. so. yea..

so as we walked to cwp, he walked alone in front, i haf no idea whether to go forward, or remain right at e back. i realised e other two of them decided to leave him alone, so i tot perhaps is best to let him be. until further part, we saw sth.... at tt instant, i realli gt e strong urge to run forward.. u c?! but.. i din .... at tis pt of time, i realli regretted... regretted gravely. i dunno y... i was lik tinking.. if onli i did went forward n gave him a hand, perhaps.. it will b better??? i haf been asking myself 'why din i run forward.. why din i run forward'. haiz... i dunno y also.. but.. haiz...

so is lik... i decided to msg him later, hoping tt he cooled down, meanwhile msging e other one.. but both seems.. haiz~~ wad a day.. haf to worry for two frens of mine at e same time?!!! reached home, i tot both of them gave me attitude at e same time too.. however, i noe it wasnt... so yea. haiz!~!~!

i dunno y, but i realli feel helpless when i see frens ard, looking so sad, angry, n there's nth much i could even do to help them? tis feeling juz sux. lik wad i told michelle, i wan to haf e psychic power of the ability to read one's mind. i realli wish i haf! I wan to read wad's in my frens' mind, so as, when i see them troubled, i could at least do sth! well, tt's how i feel. how i wish i could understand them more, n i realli mean, UNDERSTAND.

call me being overly-emotional now. but, i dun care... ! it simply juz sux! n it juz simply SUX BIG TIME! mayb, if i din bear e thought of wanting to understand them, i wont b 'suffering' right now. i realli wish i haf e 'power' to do so.. seriously.. n i realli envy them ppl whom can do tt. haiz!!

so helpless la... n i feel regretful, seriously.

haiz.. wad's wif me n bout understanding characters nowadays? dun ask me back, becoz, i dunno it myself.....