24/12 Silent Night - Kitaro

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Christmas Eve is here. Though we dont have snow here, but it is raining. Ok, the only difference is that, 'snow' is a more solidified version of 'rain'.

As usual, I dont really look forward to Christmas because I dont really fancy it since young. Maybe only just the weather? I dont know why, but everytime when Christmas is approaching, I will feel sad for no reason. My impression of Christmas has always been heart-warming, with family members cuddling together in thick blankets. And also, it is a peaceful festival.

看见大家聚在一起庆祝时，我心中就由生起了寂寞与悲伤。

It has been that way since I was young. But it is more overwhelming this year.

Although I had said that I wish I was an orphan since the past, but I've never felt so strongly like this before today.

I shall stop here.

*moved to my secret world*



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