yup.. as u can see.. it is 4+am now. actually today gt go out play pool de.. but.. in e end cancel. now serene thingy.. sumhow, i fear it will be a failure again. but kelvin assured tt it wont be. haha.. hopefully. juz now we were having grp chat.. haha.. they realli cheered me up... haha.. but sumhow, they made me miss them even more.. yup.. much more. haha!
kinda looking forward to sunday.. mak most prob also goin... i told him to get his frens also.. so in e end, i dunno if we will be goin together nt..hopefully we can go in one grp ba.. at least nt so boring. was 'chatting' wif lup peng thru friendster..he is so damn funny.. lolx~ n charmaine ah... goin into depression soon.. so stressed over her studies. huiyun also. shijuan also. haha.. look at them, realli remind me of how i prepare for exam last yr. BUT... i am different frm them.. i dun gif a damn bout prelim, in e end, i gt 3 Es.. lolx!~ it has been so long i ever had e stress of exam. haha! i admit.. i miss sec skool life.. alot. haiz...
there's a load in my mind. i dunno how to explain. lik my prev post mentioned, things are different now.. there's crack... i dunno how to face u sumtime.. say me attitude, say me pms.. n tink wadeva u wan. dun ask me wad happen, dun ask me... i tell u.. i realli dunno, n i mean it. i haf no idea y i had been reacting liddat. seriously, i wan to treasure tis friendship... but...e feeling tt i gt realli makes it hard for me. sumtime, i am ok wif it.. sometime, i am nt. i wan to tok to someone whom i can tok to, bout it... but.. is nt tt i dun wan to tok bout it OR they dun wan to listen...is.. i dun even noe where e prob lies.. i dun even noe wad exactly i wan to do.. wad exactly i am tinking.
a sense of 'FEAR' that i may lose tis friendship again.. .. yet CONFUSED bout wad i shld do... n..a mixture of diff thoughts and feelings. trust me.. things werent e same anymore.. i no longer noe wad exactly u were tinkin, k.. or rather i shld say, i dun even gt any hint bout wad u tinkin...n whether r u showing attitude or wad . i dunno... haha. i dunno.. oh well.. at least now i figured out.. e prob lies wif me.
all i could say is.. i am tired la.. realli tired la. haha.. nvm .. i dunno wad i am blabbering bout also. haha! nvm me.. haha.... kk.. bb .. haha~
kinda looking forward to sunday.. mak most prob also goin... i told him to get his frens also.. so in e end, i dunno if we will be goin together nt..hopefully we can go in one grp ba.. at least nt so boring. was 'chatting' wif lup peng thru friendster..he is so damn funny.. lolx~ n charmaine ah... goin into depression soon.. so stressed over her studies. huiyun also. shijuan also. haha.. look at them, realli remind me of how i prepare for exam last yr. BUT... i am different frm them.. i dun gif a damn bout prelim, in e end, i gt 3 Es.. lolx!~ it has been so long i ever had e stress of exam. haha! i admit.. i miss sec skool life.. alot. haiz...
there's a load in my mind. i dunno how to explain. lik my prev post mentioned, things are different now.. there's crack... i dunno how to face u sumtime.. say me attitude, say me pms.. n tink wadeva u wan. dun ask me wad happen, dun ask me... i tell u.. i realli dunno, n i mean it. i haf no idea y i had been reacting liddat. seriously, i wan to treasure tis friendship... but...e feeling tt i gt realli makes it hard for me. sumtime, i am ok wif it.. sometime, i am nt. i wan to tok to someone whom i can tok to, bout it... but.. is nt tt i dun wan to tok bout it OR they dun wan to listen...is.. i dun even noe where e prob lies.. i dun even noe wad exactly i wan to do.. wad exactly i am tinking.
a sense of 'FEAR' that i may lose tis friendship again.. .. yet CONFUSED bout wad i shld do... n..a mixture of diff thoughts and feelings. trust me.. things werent e same anymore.. i no longer noe wad exactly u were tinkin, k.. or rather i shld say, i dun even gt any hint bout wad u tinkin...n whether r u showing attitude or wad . i dunno... haha. i dunno.. oh well.. at least now i figured out.. e prob lies wif me.
all i could say is.. i am tired la.. realli tired la. haha.. nvm .. i dunno wad i am blabbering bout also. haha! nvm me.. haha.... kk.. bb .. haha~
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