It has been almost a week by now. Comparing to the first few days which is hell to me. I couldnt bend and had problems standing up after i sat on the floor, at least it is slightly better when i sat on the chair. Couldnt sleep well too. asshole! It should be just ordinary sprain, but... after feeling the pain around my spine, i couldnt help but to worry about it. Hweeling told me to visit chinese physician.


zzz.. i HATE needles!!! If only they use MICRONEEDLES right now. sianz~! Hopefully the pain will lessen after a few more days... Doesnt feel good about it at all.

Gonna send my desktop to 'hospital' soon too, i guess. zz.. it broke down again after 7 mths due to my over-usage. WAHAHA!! nahz.. same problem, hence i wasnt that worried. BUT... i dont think i can bring it down to repair because of my injury. haiz... I dont wish to worsen it and i CANT AFFORD to as at least i feel the pain is lessening and it may have something to do with my spine...? I am right now praying hard that my laptop will be able to bear the load which i am going to add on it.


*sayang laptop*



SAd... practically couldnt sleep well due to the pain-ness when i tried to turn and toss. For the first 2 days, i couldnt even turn at all. Just wanted to cry so much. aRGH!!! Poor me, still have to shun away from people's poking despite the injury. Hopefully didnt worsen it. zzz..


AHHHH!!! sleepy la....


Oh yea, we went to the mat sci talk just now and.... what a sight manz. haha... Many of the people there were sleeping, including those people who sat right at the first row (haha... you should know who i am referring to)...

Then it seems as though no one is interested in the Mat sci games, and after knowing something, some of us went to try out cassandra's team's game. Evil weifen was so HAPPY (practicallly clapping, cheering and laughing) when I had to receive punishment. ZZZZ!!!!!


About School...


Hmm.. Ever since this semester started, i am really feeling very useless to my teammates. I feel as though i am a slacker whom dont know everything and throw everything to my teammates. I always have the thinking that they might think that i am such a stupid idiot whom dont even know the most basic thing and... is useless to have me in the team. Hl said that the study ambience in my class is stressful. Initially i didnt feel it, however, i think that what she said is right. If not, why would i feel such a total useless bum right now...


I am thinking that, maybe there's some 'political' about me behind my back which i wouldnt know. Or maybe i am just thinking too much. However, even if there is, i dont think i will be even bothered to make my explanation for whatever i say will always be labelled as EXCUSES.

The fact is that, i couldnt stand being such a useless bum in the team... i am NOT slacker...definitely not!!!