wanna say thanx to serene again. i realli felt much better after tokin to her, i will listen to her.. try to control myself. now e magical word to me is 'CONTROL' lolx~ i realise tt, i din have tt horrible dream of tooth dropping anymore. lolx.. in fact, i have sweet dream, especially last nite.
i dreamt of some of ps0102 peeps n my klassmates now... in fact we were out together. hmm... i dunno how to explain.. but e feeling is simply so great. we went to a.. hmm.. seems lik a fast-food outlet (cant rmb is wad), n e interior design is so special. (hmm.. sekali is e fast-food outlet in e woodland Rp campus.. xD).. it is so bright. i dunno y.. i luv it. e roof is lik.. all made up of glass panel.. allowing e sun ray to shine into e building. we even stayed until late nite.. we sat on e wooden floor (e floor feel so cold) , wif pillows ard us.. n guess wad.. we even drink =.=" but e feeling is so shiok la. when looked up rite, can even see e sky wif stars as decoration. if onli.. if onli.. it is a de javu. i mean tt, i hope tt, when i go into e new RP campus, i may find a spot EXACTLY lik wad i dreamt now. yea.. DE JAVU. hopefully. lolx~
but.. now.. i dunno y. i am feeling kinda uneasy. i told serene, they r amulets tt used to keep me down, or rather, calm me down? lolx! everytime, i felt uneasy bout sth, no idea y, whenever i am wif them.. i juz feel sooooo calm la.. as if all e probs gone. n now.. i juz cant feel peace in myself.. well.. supposingly i shld get tt feeling whenever i am in my present klass, wif my present klassmates. but.. no use.. u noe.. tt.. up-and-down feeling inside? if nv change klass, i will sure gt peace inside me. well.. i dunno... let's see how lor. i am someone whom cant move ahead as easy as wad u all can do.
shld i leave before everyone leave me? wad shld i do? y future always holds uncertainty for everyone? i am always curious bout wad future holds for me... but when i noe bout it, i always wan to go back to e past. hahaha. frankly speaking, i dunno wad i am tinkin now... wad i wan to do now... all i noe is... i am confused bout one thing - someone. nth much.. n e matter is nt wad u guys tinkin bout. on and off ah? weird. i wanna ask... i wanna msg ....all e 'wanna's, i did not do it. haha~ Uncertainty and confused make me stop everything. hahah.. how to move on when i haf uncertainty in my mind?
hmm.. where my AMULETS? =X
i dreamt of some of ps0102 peeps n my klassmates now... in fact we were out together. hmm... i dunno how to explain.. but e feeling is simply so great. we went to a.. hmm.. seems lik a fast-food outlet (cant rmb is wad), n e interior design is so special. (hmm.. sekali is e fast-food outlet in e woodland Rp campus.. xD).. it is so bright. i dunno y.. i luv it. e roof is lik.. all made up of glass panel.. allowing e sun ray to shine into e building. we even stayed until late nite.. we sat on e wooden floor (e floor feel so cold) , wif pillows ard us.. n guess wad.. we even drink =.=" but e feeling is so shiok la. when looked up rite, can even see e sky wif stars as decoration. if onli.. if onli.. it is a de javu. i mean tt, i hope tt, when i go into e new RP campus, i may find a spot EXACTLY lik wad i dreamt now. yea.. DE JAVU. hopefully. lolx~
but.. now.. i dunno y. i am feeling kinda uneasy. i told serene, they r amulets tt used to keep me down, or rather, calm me down? lolx! everytime, i felt uneasy bout sth, no idea y, whenever i am wif them.. i juz feel sooooo calm la.. as if all e probs gone. n now.. i juz cant feel peace in myself.. well.. supposingly i shld get tt feeling whenever i am in my present klass, wif my present klassmates. but.. no use.. u noe.. tt.. up-and-down feeling inside? if nv change klass, i will sure gt peace inside me. well.. i dunno... let's see how lor. i am someone whom cant move ahead as easy as wad u all can do.
shld i leave before everyone leave me? wad shld i do? y future always holds uncertainty for everyone? i am always curious bout wad future holds for me... but when i noe bout it, i always wan to go back to e past. hahaha. frankly speaking, i dunno wad i am tinkin now... wad i wan to do now... all i noe is... i am confused bout one thing - someone. nth much.. n e matter is nt wad u guys tinkin bout. on and off ah? weird. i wanna ask... i wanna msg ....all e 'wanna's, i did not do it. haha~ Uncertainty and confused make me stop everything. hahah.. how to move on when i haf uncertainty in my mind?
hmm.. where my AMULETS? =X
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