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21/5 鄭融 - 成就感

鄭融 - 成就感 大家都说:“要人对你好,你就要先付出。”, No one is obliged to be good to you , taking people for granted . 不要老是要求人,其他人没有必要满足你。 话说得没有错。 说真的,我觉得大家都在迁就我。我是知道的,是高兴的,是感动的。我总是得到我要的,可是永远都不是我就想要的。 你说我自私,说我不讲理,但绝不能说我从不迁就。 我 最想要去的地方, 最想做的事, 最想吃的东西, 最想玩的东西, 因为你们的反对, 因为我知道你们老是迁就我, 所以为了让你们开心 所以我让步了。 我不去我最想去的地方, 我不去做我的最想做的东西, 我不去吃我最想吃的东西, 我不去玩我最想玩的东西。 有时候,我得不到我要的,是因为大家对价钱的问题。 所以我为了得到我最想要的,我愿意付的比大家多, 甚至愿意把一切都付了, 可是 为什么 为什么你们还是不愿意 为什么 就是不能让我这一次 让了我这么多次 可是我得到的, 却永远,永远不是我最想要的。 难道 我就没让过吗? 难道 你们都不知道吗? 有一些事,一些地方, 我想要做,想要去 已经好几年 不是一年,不是两年,而是至少四年 每一次都被拒绝 我忍 我让 就这样过了这么多年 当我真的不能再忍时 我发难 我就在你们眼里变得无理取闹 。 。 。 。 。 我 还有什么话好说 不想说了 更不想解释 因为解释 没人能理解 大家只会想,不能 ‘这样’,就 ‘那样’ 吧。为什么要这么执着? 对呀,我就 ‘那样’ 了这么多年。 就这样继续下去吧 到死的那一天,我都没办法 ‘这样’。 如果可以 我愿意失去所有我得到的 ‘想要的’ 一切 来换取我 ‘最想要的’ 一切。 你知道 ‘最想要’ 和 ‘想要’ 的分别吗?

27/3 木結他獨奏 張智霖 究竟海有幾深 (魚躍在花見 主題曲)

木結他獨奏 張智霖 究竟海有幾深 (魚躍在花見 主題曲) I am back, for a short while. Sigh. From 14 July till now, it has been about 9 months. 9 colleagues left, and Friday marked the 10th. Many changes took place at work and it was just too drastic for anyone to absorb at once. Within my group, which has been labelled 'harmonious' since the first day I joined, is no longer in that way. Wks ago, two of them had argument and it ended up in facebook. It became open to all and both were in cold war in office with another of my innocent colleague having to be their messenger. =( This week was another two colleagues' turn. SIGH!!! Some of them commented that our group had changed. In the past, there is little or no argument among the group. But every now and then, everyone could see and hear those arguments among us going around in office and even in facebook. Sigh. Another 2 colleagues had tendered and their last day is in April. Another one has got her letter ready. The rest are all looking for new jobs...

29/11 Ryan Farish - Time Between Us

Ryan Farish - Time Between Us Alright. I am back. We had our company dinner (or rather, Admin & AA dept's) at Fairmont Hotel on 12 Nov, which was also Choi Wan's last day. It was fun and the food was good. After the dinner, some of us went for the second part of the night - Ksinging at Somerset! I didnt stay for the full session though. I left slightly after 12 am while the rest continued till 1 am plus. Then, 18 Nov was Chern Chong's last day. Hmm... Before I went off that day, he just had to say goodbye to me, with the label 'EX-COLLEAGUE' at the back. =.=""" Well, we have been meeting up for lunch quite frequently after he started working at his new location, which is somewhere near by. Yesterday was the official last day for Mike. However it was more reasonable to take his last day as of 26 Nov. lol.... I've forgotten that it was his last day on that day. Next, it will be Gwen and my manager...... =( And I happen to know that there are ano...

5/11 98º - Was It Something I Didn't Say

98 Degrees - Was it something I didnt say (karaoke version) Many things happened for the past two wks. Hmm.. Hmm.... 27 Oct: Tinh's bday. Celebrated her bday with some other at paya lebar's vietnamese restaurant. Pictures are in facebook. Lol... fun night with them. 29 Oct: Advanced celebration for Celine's bday. Choi Wan and I went to bugis to get her hamper (gift) and cake during lunch hr. Initial plan was to get Erma to bring in the hamper to her, faking that it was sent via courier without any sender details. However, plan was changed slightly. I placed the hamper on her table while she went out. When she was back, she was shocked. I told her that Erma put on her table and it was sent here via courier. Then, I kept saying is her secret admirer while she kept asking me who was it as there's no card. Lol. Erma even co-operated with us and play a fool of Celine. Hahahahhah!!!!!!!!!! Celine commented that by sending her so many chicken essence, this means that the sende...

24/10 衛蘭Janice - Never Know (Duet with 李治廷Aarif)

衛蘭Janice - Never Know (Duet with 李治廷Aarif) Some thoughts... For whatever reason it is, I have no idea why that I have that fear on Friday. It just suddenly appeared. I dont wish to be near that person or talk to that person out of a sudden. But then, I still did. Mixture of unexplainable feeling. Sometime I dont know what is going on. There is no one to talk to. Everyone is busy telling me all bout themselves. .... I just want to get all these clear...... Sometime, it is not easy to break it out. I have no idea why too. When I think I can/want to share this with a particular person, he/she is sharing things all bout themselves that I decided to swallow my questions down my throat. 很乱。搞不懂!真搞不懂!怎么办?怎么办? Lastly, I dont want Nov to be here, because I dont want them to leave. T_T ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Another week has passed. Joined dinner with Amelie, Celine, Roy, Marcel and Deniss after work at boat quay on Tuesday. Anoth...

17/10 金莎 newest album

金莎 - 画中仙 Many things happened. My probation period is finally over and I got the letter on Friday. (chey, Sowmya didnt have Serlyna's, if not I can play joke with her. LOL) Basically, till this day, I am still quite happy to be working there. Colleagues wise, they are really nice and funny bunch of people though some of them like to 'poke' me, or hit me lightly on my head or back. LOL! Ever since I started work there, I suddenly felt that I have many elder brothers and sisters at the same time, becoz they always refer me as XIAO HAI ZI. TSK! =.=" But......... sigh... =( They had been catching me, smiling to the laptop. Gwen even intercom me: Gwen: Eh, u msn-ing right? Me: Yea.. Gwen: Hahah... EVERYONE saw tt u keep smiling lor!! EVERYONE looking at u lor! While talking to her via phone, I am still msn-ing. HAHAHAHAHAHHA! Sigh..... I will miss them very very much. Anyway, Last Thursday: Farewell dinner for Yolanda with the colleagues and Charles. Then... Yesterday: KTV...

8/10 阿穆隆 & 许茹芸 - 男人女人

阿穆隆 & 许茹芸 - 男人女人 不想理。。。 刻意的避开。。 也许你以为我没听到、没看到。。。 如果你真的要对我开这种玩笑来报复,也许,我会跟你玩到底。。 说真的,第一个当下感觉也不见得是真的。 原来当你分不出什么是真和假的时候,是那么可怕和迷惘的。 Had my first ktv session with my colleagues today. It was decided last min today and I am still very glad that they did turned up. Really enjoyed myself with them. However.... sigh.... I really hope that this will never end. Sad to say, it is, and it is soon. =(