Graduation Ceremony 2008 had ended today. It was funny to watch those clips. It was more like advertising RP leh. LOL! Luckily, they didnt showed those pictures of the Tanglin campus, played those sad songs and those pictures of us. I will definitely tear. LOL! Photos will be up after I've received them. Anyway, I am beginning to believe the fortune teller's words that I am at the peak in term of friendship. I really felt very lucky with those people around me. I think I got more 'Gui ren' instead of 'xiao ren'? When come to looking for jobs, people will come offering me job opportunities. People like SJ, hweeming, Rui and her sis, weifen and angerline etc. When I needed help in printing application form, Weifen will also be there to help me. LOL. But to disappoint her, I wont be using the one she printed for me. =X She knows why. =X Actually, other than the form, I still need to print my resume! But I forgot all about it till yesterday! ZZZ. Wanted to print in ...
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Had 2 bad dreams. 1st with someone. 2nd with family. Both made me cried the moment I opened my eyes. I shant post the 1st dream here, so here's the 2nd dream. Just now I dreamt of my old flat again. Ever since I've moved, my dreams most of the time will take place in there. Hmm, I was with a group of friends, and my parents were outside the flat. I opened the main door, wanting to get out, and finally seeing the both of them, I remained in the flat. They seemed to be discussing something, and I saw my mum weeping. I knew my mum wanted a divorce, and that bastard is trying to stop her. It took them long enough before they came back. And the first thing they told me was, they've moved to another flat, and brought some of my stuffs there. In my dream, I felt like a little kid back then, follows wherever the parents go. However, I was so relunctant. I asked my mum why she didnt want to bring me away and leave him forever? The more I asked, the more she weeped. Feeling so fr...
四年过去了，可是对于那场梦，我始终还是不能释怀。 一直以为随着时间的流失，对于那痛不欲生的回忆也会渐渐的消失。可是事情总是相反的。‘好奇心’随着时间而增强、强烈的让我快要窒息。我总是试着说服自己那只是一个简单的梦，不要想太多。可是从网络、电视节目、书籍上得来的许多资讯，好像正在缓缓的抹杀掉自己的说服力。 我真的好想忘记掉那场梦。因为书籍上曾经记载着‘一个人会一直做同样的梦直到当他真正的留意到那场梦。’也许是六年、八年、甚至于十年前，我曾做过那场梦。不过，当时对那场梦中发生的一切已经不太清楚了，只记得那痛不欲生的感觉吧。所以在几年后，也就是四年前，我才会再做同样的一个梦。 当时，我非常清楚地知道我正在做梦（也就是人们所称为 ' lucid dreaming ' ）。在做梦时，我一人扮演了两个角色，‘梦中的我’和‘现实的我’。在梦中，我看见了一些陌生人，四处的景色不像现在这么得繁华。 在绿油油的草原中，有一间木质茅屋。梦中的事物就像是只有在博物馆才看得到、体会得到。可是在梦中，我可是活生生的在体会着。那些‘陌生人’的脸孔对现在的我来说是‘陌生’的，但对在梦中的我来说是如此的熟悉、亲密的。我清楚的知道他们每一个人的名字。听见他们嚷着一个‘陌生’的名字，我会不知觉得做出回应。我知道那就是我的名字。不，那时的我不是‘淑仪’。 梦里的我，站在镜子面前，看着反射出的模样。现实中我知道镜子里的不是我，因为脸孔、身形都不像我，可是在梦中，我百分白确定那就是我。在梦中我还多看了镜中的‘我’几眼。那就是我，一点也没错。 晚餐时间是充满着欢乐、甜蜜、自由。有好友们和‘他’的相伴，时时刻刻都是如此的幸福。可是‘幸福’是短暂的。‘他’必须先行搭火车离开。这一切让我发觉到这场梦似曾相似，而我也知道那场梦会是有个什么样的收场。所以意志清醒的我正告诉梦中的自己说‘不能让他离开’。可是无论我多努力，也是没有用的。 结局还是一样。 梦中，我看见了两辆‘像似真气’火车相撞后的情形。很多人站在火车旁，像是在做拯救活动。轨道上看见一些血淋淋的尸体，惨烈的哀号声频频地发出。抱着胆战心惊、随时会坠落绝望深渊的心情，在人海茫茫中找寻着‘他’的身影。 结果看见了一个熟悉的身影。‘他’的脸上流着他的血、衣裳也被血染成红色。微弱的‘对不起’、虚弱的呼吸，我当时知道‘他’快捱不过了。听着‘他’的声音、感受到...