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firstly i wanna say thanx to the following ppl : lup peng, Geraldine , ihsan, atikah, benji, weifen, michelle (w3), jimmy, melisa, liwee, Kenny, serene, huangyun, mich(PL), sheerui, hweeming, azhar, fungwee, zhanyuan, shihui, Doreen, (fren's fren) Sharon, yihua, clara, kaihoow, ethan, shijuan, huiyun, e grp of ppl whom i dunno anyone of them =X... (not in any order... n sry if i miss anyone out =X) haha... these r the ppl whom rmb my bday. wahaha!~!~!~ so touched! but sadly, two of my bestest childhood frens actually forgt... haiz... T_T. but nvm... i realli enjoy my day!!! let me start wif it. initially we planned to go look for jim one... so yup. i was supposed to meet mich n ethan first at raffles place mrt station, but when i was out of my hse, mich told me she juz woke up =.=" so onli left me n ethan nia. den on e way, i kept persuading zy n wanzhen to go sia. haha!~!~!~ so yup... when at e 700+ bus stop, i realli tio shocked sia!!!!!!! becoz i SWEARED i saw sumone whom l...

ytd (28/4) was chester bday... today (29/4) is melisa's.... n tml (30/4) will gonna b mine. haha.. i was reading bout my post on my bday for e past two yrs. i realised that, actually everytime when the date is coming near, i do not feel anything tt much, except for lonliness. not becoz of no frens ard me... but juz tt lonliness which i dun understand myself. sumhow, is also not becoz of e lonliness that affect me tt much, but it juz seems to b a 'practice' tt everytime before my bday, there will always b sth tt brooding me for quite sometime. i am always carrying that emotion of sorrow, complicated feeling when i am 'celebrating' my bday. there's no exception for tis yr.. haiz... i dun wan to bring tt kinda of emotion along wif me on tis day. but... wad can i do?... haiz...

hmm! haha!! ok... today.. normal la... but today same klass wif weifen they all. haha! n i believe it will gonna b fun la. haha!! so went to klass...told weifen tt i finish e research of e surface tension.. den she nv failed to bully me la. =.=" anyway... during e 1st break, i went to look for sia wif yanfen's harddrive to go n tk show lor. haha!! den i was shocked to see weiwen in sia's klass summore same team as her. wahaha! so after tt, i transfered to my comp le.. i returned to yanfen le. den gt liwee to come over as i wan to get frm her e missing episodes. haha!~ n i actually forgt to tell her wad klass i was in today lor!!!!!!!!!!!!! weifen told me to call her.. but my hp credit low.. so i sms her =.=" as expected! she dunno wad klass i was in, n she went to get clara. wahaha! damn funny la!!!!!!!!! wee actually told me to stay in klass during 2nd breakout one... but i told her i wan go get coat. lik wad i am tinkin la.. it will b awhile onli... so... yup. i ju...

i also dunno wad to type. simply becoz.. i am beri luan now. i am having mixture of strong feelings. i realli wonder how long can i bear wif it. it juz seems lik i need to let it out asap le...i dunno y... i realli feel lik.. i cant stand it any much longer le. i aint that strong afterall. i feel as if my mind isnt mine anymore.............. awhile ago, i tink back of e past... awhile later i tink bout ... haiz..... u noe wad? i realli wan to get drunk although i noe e feeling realli sux. but... haiz... i dun wanna go skool anymore! i dun wanna see him anymore, including any mention of him. *cold laugh* seems lik i am contradicting myself. one side i am telling e others not to avoid or take their time slowly... but i am now trying to avoid. haha... haha... haha... haha... haha... now no matter how happy those songs r... couldnt ease my sorrow anymore. nth! Nothing! sumtime i realli wonder if i am not obvious or am i juz too obvious to the extent that he knew or suspect but pretend nt...

i guess i am used to waking up early le... haha... i automatic woke up at 8+ actually.. but i force myself to slp back awhile.. but i woke up at again... becoz TOO NOISY!! den i decided to climb out of my bed liao at 11+am =.=" eh... it consider early to me liao k! hahah... anyway.. i am missing PL0204 now. haha~~ i mean, i miss those familiar faces in tt big big classroom... haiz... is at least 1 1/4 or 1 1/2 of e klassroom i had now lor.. haiz~~ i realli miss those days in tt klassroom.. juz lik how much i miss ps0102 when i was in pl0204. haha~ (to ps0102, i din forgt u guys ah.. haha). haiz... now i gt 4klasses... there's no where for me to call 'my own'... haiz... when in e past i could say tt PS0102 n PL0204 is MINE. haiz~~ get it? i realli envy liwee, jim they all lor.. they gt one fixed klass n they r so close now.. well.. at least for liwee. n tt realli made me rmb ps0102 more. haiz... so sad... i dun lik SAS arrangement of klasses la! they bias toward biotec...

hoho... atikah of ps0102 is e first one to wish me happy bday. haha!!! thanx alot!! haha!~!~!~!~ n she told me tt dean came late ma.. so i purposely asked her to help me say 'morning foo seng'. muahaha!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~ n he asked me go n die. so sad. tt char upon seeing my personal msg also join in asking me go n die =.=" so bad n so sad!! haiz~~~ actually today prob kinda easy lehh... but i realli enjoy klass today... erm.. at least e prob. rmb last time i hate physic to e core.. but now, i realise tt actually physics can b tt fun. heee~~ i am liking physics gradually~ anyway, after skool today, when i was bout to go look for jim at his blk, tt fellow actually went offline =.=" so in e end, i din go for e meeting for nth =.=" on e way back, at woodland mrt station, i met sumone whom looked lik haru!! becoz tt guy had short hair. den is lik.. i keep staring.. den finally realised is him, den i called him. wahaha!~~ omg.. i couldnt recognise him. den he d...

hee... today ah... hmm.. anatomy is realli driving me crazy. i stress to e extent i nearly cant stand it n wanna scold vulgarity n storm out of e room. i even gt e idea tt i wanna go back le.. i dun wan to stay in klass le! haiz!~!~!~ anyway... for last wk, is actually consider quite a gd start for me le... for all my modules i gt B... haha.. but i darent say for tis wk =.=" i borrowing lab coat frm lyn le.. muahaha!!! she say hers beri long sia.... n tt remind me of wad wk said =.=" wk tt time was telling me tt syam I n him were looking for e in-trend of e lab coat, as in long or short one.. den..... me : long one best.... wk : help mop e lab room floor ah? =.="""""""" haha.. miss his crap la. haha!!! actually today i went to look for clara.. den i met charles. haha!!! he asked wad klass am i in... n yea.. as u noe, i gt 4 klasses, how would i noe i shld say wad klass?!?!?!? =.=" so i paused awhile n say 'er... i today at 5K.....